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(no subject) [Sep. 21st, 2013|11:21 pm]
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then I heard your heart beating
you were in the darkness, too

so I stayed in the darkness with you.
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(no subject) [Apr. 19th, 2013|12:13 am]
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ALSO I'm really fucking glad I didn't get you any of the expensive shit I was thinking about.

I mean I know you're pissed but damn.
Burning my gift??

That's a cunt move.

One I KNEW was going to happen.
So happy I assumed you were like that. It saved me a lot of money.

That flamingo was cheap...but it meant a lot.

Fuck you.


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(no subject) [Apr. 19th, 2013|12:09 am]
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I think I still love you.

Fuck.


I really wish I didn't.


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(no subject) [Mar. 6th, 2013|08:58 pm]
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Oh my god. I have missed you.



Talking to you made my year.
Please feel better.


I wish I could talk to you everyday.


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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2013|07:21 pm]
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I feel like I'm trapped in a horrible nightmare that I had once, and hoped to never revisit. Just like the gut-wrenching feeling that overpowered me at dayglow, walking into setup for the Venetian Ball is flooding my body with the pain of remembering.

The last time I was here was the most crippling and intense panic attack I have ever had. One where I ran from everyone so they wouldn't see my legs give out from under me, and all I could hear was a high pitched, deafening silence. Like the ringing you still hear after a long night out, but louder than anything else I'd ever heard. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't move. I wanted to run out and never turn around. But I didn't have that option. All of this occurred before 10am, and I was forced to spend the next 12 hours forcing a smile and pretending nothing happened. Remain as professional as possible when all I could think about doing was hurling myself out of the nearest window.

You had just told me to fuck off once and for all, and now I know what people mean when they say the earth crumbled in around them. I finally felt it. It was worse than anything I could ever imagine. And I'm back here now. It's horrible.
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(no subject) [Feb. 21st, 2013|09:57 pm]
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I want to talk to you more.

An hour back and forth wasn't nearly enough for me. It just brought everything to light I was trying to ignore...




I'm completely unhappy and I miss you every second.
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(no subject) [Feb. 10th, 2013|09:20 pm]
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Also, I think I can't even save you anymore. I love you more than words, I'm sorry you forgot that and instead chose to destroy yourself. Please be careful.

Please.

I'm not giving up, I'm just giving in.
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(no subject) [Feb. 10th, 2013|09:19 pm]
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I still cry way too often when I think about you...



I think at this point there's no hope for me.
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(no subject) [Feb. 3rd, 2013|02:49 pm]
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Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I'll always love you, I'll always love you
'Cause I love you


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(no subject) [Feb. 1st, 2013|07:38 pm]
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Tumblr is a place for things that inspire you.

Yours is filled with brilliant art, meaningful lyrics, adorable animals, and things that I love to see. You use it as a way to express your feelings, your heartache, and seemingly to reach out to me and let me know you still care, no matter how much it hurts. Everytime you are on, there's always something that feels like it's directed at me. Sometimes, if I'm lucky, it's your own words keeping us connected.

His is filled with porn. Mostly gay porn.


The person who's always thinking of me, is not the person who sleeps next to me every night.



Awesome.


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